3/3/2026-About 306 days ago
Hello, I lost my best friend due to suicide just over 300 days ago, I never have gone back to myself, never have been able to enjoy life as much. I tried taking my life about 69 days ago, because I just wanted to be with my best friend again. It sucks, it really does. Learning how to re navigate without someone so important is a very hard thing and I'll admit, I never thought I would ever have to go through school and stuff without my best friend. I'm in high school, school is hard enough to try to get through with grades and events and stuff. I also almost just lost one of my really good friends recently, I don't know what I would really do without her, having one friend gone is hard enough, without 2 i would lose my fricken mind. When I think about how I almost lost my good friend, it just brings me back to losing my other friend. School and grades have been kicking my butt this year, I don't feel like I can really do anything, and when I do it's like i'm barley doing it. I mean i have 4 C's a D and a B i'm not falling but im really close. Anyways sorry for such a long message, if there's anyone who has lost a friend sue to suicide please have them respond. I really apricate all you guys do. *Some identifying information was removed from this message for this person's privacy* 3/3/2026 Thanks for messaging Ask Peppy. We see your post and we’re really glad you reached out. A few of our volunteers wanted to take a little extra time to write back with care and thoughtfulness. You can expect your first response early next week. You matter, and we’re here for you. Thanks again for sharing with us. If you feel you need extra support, please call or text the Suicide & Crisis line 988. It's a free, confidential support line available 24/7 for anyone experiencing emotional distress, a mental health crisis, or thoughts of suicide. 9/10/2025-38 days today...
My best friend took her life 38 days ago today. I still can't even believe it anymore. I just miss her so much. She gave homeless people all she had herself, that just shows how much love she gave out and never got back. She took her life because of bullying and other problem's {I can't say what} I don't have permission to tell others that part. Anyways, she walked into the room and just made it light up. Without her, I'm very lost. I NEVER thought id go to high school without her. Life without that light is so draining. the only thing I can look up to is volleyball mostly. I really really need her right now. I tried to take my life over the summer, when i got out she was there the only person who didn't look at me differently. I never want to go past 15 now. Thats the age she passed away. I want to figure a way out. I wanted your Guys's opinion on something to do on her birthday. I hope that I will be free one day, I'm already way better than I was.
September 10, 2025 Thanks for messaging Ask Peppy. We see your post and we’re really glad you reached out. If you feel you need extra support, please call or text the Suicide & Crisis line 988. from rosie
hey, that sounds like a really difficult thing to go through. suicide is a tough subject to talk about, especially when it seems like you're the only one who understands. I'm glad you reached out. your friend sounds like a really cool person. doing something for her birthday is really sweet of you, and it might be a good opportunity to work thru some of your feelings about it. write her a letter, maybe watch a movie/tv show you guys liked. writing letters to lost loved ones sometimes helps them feel closer (not always, but it might help). if you want any resources for helplines, we are available ofc but here are some others: (1.800.626.8137 - crisis line) also, don't forget that you are a valuable person. events like this can throw you off your axis and feel like your world fell down, so taking it a day at a time is perfectly okay. it's okay to have good and bad days - recovery isn't always "yay everything is awesome" so if you feel yourself getting down, don't get discouraged! there will be fun things too :). it sounds like you enjoy volleyball (awesome btw), I'm glad you have something to look forward to. if you have any other hobbies that you like (and maybe you did with your friend), that's a good option for taking some self-care time while also connecting with her. having you-time isn't selfish or bad, it can help you process upsetting things and your own feelings. again, I'm really sorry you're going through this. please reach out if you want to chat/text, we are all here for you! - rosie <3 from Layla
Hello there, my name is Layla. I wanted to thank you for reaching out. Reaching out can be hard. I am so sorry for your loss. I can relate to losing a friend. Your friend sounds like she was an amazing person. Bullying is a really difficult thing. People bulling another person is never the answer. Just from what you shared, It sounds like your best friend was a very thoughtful person. Giving homeless people all you have yourself, shows her personality. Going into high school without someone must be hard. I can say from experience when you lose your good friend, you will feel lost. It will get better though. There will always be a place in your heart when you lose someone. Volleyball is a really good to get emotions out! I am personally A volleyball player. Playing volleyball could or could not be a good coping skill for you. I am so sorry you went through that. Feeling like all you can do is take your own life is hard. I am so glad your doing better!! That's amazing. Coming back from what I call it " Rock bottom" Can be really difficult. When you say " You never want to go past 15 now " What does that mean to you? I wanted to let you know that if you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, 988 Is a great place to reach out to. It's a 24 hour, confidential line. Birthday wise, maybe you can write a card, or make a jewelry piece, or maybe just giving your self some time. When it is a loved ones anniversary of death, or something like that things do get hard. If you want to talk about it, Teen talk is open Monday-Thursday 4-9pm and Friday 4-7pm. There is a lot of lovely volunteers here that would love to talk to you. You are not alone in this. You got this!! I believe in you. Stay strong and reach out if you need. - Layla :) from flora
Hello, thank you for sharing your feelings. I understand how it can feel heartbreaking and challenging to navigate high school by yourself without your best friend. It's okay to grieve for your friend and take your time to process these emotions. That's good that volleyball is in your life and that's something that you can look up to during this time. One thing, I would like to share is that your best friend would want you to live life to the fullest, and I know it may seem hard at first but slowly it can get better as time passes. I understand your concerns and I'm glad that you are courageous to share these feelings on your heart. A couple of things that you could do on her birthday, is to experience what she would want to do for fun. A couple of ideas you can make her a card, plant something as to honor her which could be her favorite flowers, plants, trees anything that reminds of her. You can also make a photo memory book, playlist of her favorite songs, or visit her favorite places she always loved to go. These are a couple of ideas that you can do and be patient with yourself. Grief can be many emotions, and some days can be hard, so I want you to know you matter in this life. A quote I can share is- "Grief has no end it just becomes a part of who you are. Maybe that's the point to carry them with you, not in heartache & pain but in the love that never, ever goes away." I am glad that you are doing better now and keep going :) If you ever need to talk someone, I am here for you. from hazel
Hey, thank you so much for reaching out. It takes a lot of courage to share something this heavy. I can tell how much your friend meant to you, and it’s completely natural to feel lost and drained after losing someone who brought so much light into your life. Grief doesn’t follow a timeline, and it’s normal for it to still feel raw weeks or months later. Feeling this deeply just shows how much she meant to you, and it’s okay that some days hit harder than others. But things will get better; and there are still things in life to look forward to, no matter how seemingly small they are. For her birthday, maybe you could do something small but meaningful in her memory, like writing her a letter, doing a kind act for someone else, or spending time doing something you both loved, like volleyball or listening to music she liked. Whatever feels right for you is perfect. I also want to make sure you’re safe right now. Feeling like you want to end your life is serious, and you deserve to get support. In the U.S., you can call or text 988, the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline, and you’ll be connected with someone trained to listen and help. You don’t have to carry this alone. It’s okay to grieve, it’s okay to cry, and it’s okay to reach out for help when it feels too heavy. Loving her and honoring her memory while taking care of yourself is something im certain she would want for you. Wishing you all the best, Hazel <3 from dylan
Hi, thank you for reaching out to Teen Talk. You are so incredibly strong for being able to talk about your friend right now and I can't even begin to imagine the mix of emotions you must be feeling right now. This seems like such a recent loss for you, and by the way that you have described your friend I know she must have been such a light in your and many others' lives. I can definitely give you some options for things to do for her birthday! Some of the things I can think of are - Do what they love: Engage in activities that your friend enjoyed, such as watching their favorite movie or visit their favorite place. Another option is to visit their resting place: bring flowers or leave handmade notes to honor their memory. One of my last ideas is donate to a cause: contribute to a charity that prevents bullying, to honor their memory. I wish you luck in your grieving journey, and please feel free to reach back out. Grieving can be such an overwhelming and daunting journey, but I hope that you will be able to learn to live with this grief. Teen Talk is open from 4-9 p.m., Monday-Friday. Sincerely, -Dylan from chloe
Hi there, I know what its like to lose a friend. I lost my friend to suicide in June, I say lost like they wondered off during a hangout or just got their phone taken but the truth is I cant being myself to say dead because I don't want to accept it. Its going to be hard to turn the chapter when someone will no longer be in the story, It's hard when someone's gone and you need them. its okay to be lost without them. She seemed amazing once you find someone that lights up the room and makes you smile even on your hard days they are the ones worth keeping. just because they are physically gone doesn't mean they aren't here. i get not wanting to get older because I don't either. my friend was buried so whenever its their birthday we decorate their grave with their favorite flower and a gift, but please know that what u are going though your aren't alone. And that you do matter in this world. the pain of losing someone never really goes away you learn how to carry it with you. losing a friend at 15/16 always comes with anger, guilty, confusion and sadness and its totally normal. what sucks the most though is having so many question's left unknown and having the what if I could have done something ringing in your head. but please reach out if you need anything XOXO Chloe <3 from jamie
Hey, things sound really rough for you but I'm glad you reached out! Your best friend must have meant a lot to you, and I can't imagine what it's like to close someone so close. She seemed like a very compassionate and selfless person, and I think you can continue her legacy of helping others! Your best friend would definitely encourage you to keep going and find things that make life worth living for!!! Maybe for her birthday you could help out at a homeless shelter, the humane society, or even work at a food pantry. Or you could even do things that are just plain fun like going to the mall, jamming out to music, or playing video games :) I really want things to get better for you and I know they will!!! If you ever want to chat, feel free to reach out to us via text or social media. Wishing you the best! -Jaime 5/6/2025-Suiside
I’ve recently lost my best friend to be exact 27 days ago. I really miss her. Well now I’m going through what she went through and now I understand why she did what she did. But I still miss her like crazy. I’d give anything to see her again. It breaks my heart her kind loving soul is gone. She supported everyone even her bullies. She’s or she was the reason of my life. Now I’m lost.
from emma
Hii! I'm Emma from teentalk. I'm glad you reach out to us and thank you for sharing something so personal to you! It is very brave of you, and we are really proud of your braveness. I'm sorry that you have to go through such pain, especially losing someone so dear and close to you. I understand and your feeling are valid. Your best friend sound like a beautiful and amazing person. But don't forget you are too; you are the best of yourself and that is all it matters. You being here can carry on those beautiful memories you have with your best friend. You can live on her mind set and support others like she as a reminder of an amazing person she is. But the most important part is you being safe. So don't let those negativities let you down, you are amazing and important as all. 08/19/2025-My best Friend
My best friend committed suiside this month, I miss her SO much. My heart just breaks knowing I’ll never see,hear,talk to her again. I understand why she did it now. I’ve thought about taking my life, especially since I don’t have my best friend by my side. I miss her so much and I just want her back. I don’t know what to expect anymore. I just really want to have her sweet loving soul back.
*****Some identifying information was removed from this message for this person’s privacy. You matter, and we’re here for you. Thanks for sharing with us. **If you feel you need extra support, please call or text the Suicide & Crisis line 988. It's a free, confidential support line available 24/7 for anyone experiencing emotional distress, a mental health crisis, or thoughts of suicide. from kit
Thank you for reaching out at this difficult time, it’s incredibly brave and it sounds like she was an amazing friend. It’s okay to miss her and to feel lost. When my cousin died by suicide I didn’t really know what to do. I also had thoughts of ending my life but I’m really glad I didn’t. He wouldn’t have wanted that for me and I don’t think your friend would either. All those painful feelings I felt when he died would happen to my family if I took my life. The more I thought about it the more reasons I could find to not end my life. Please try to find those reasons for yourself and if you can’t you can always reach out to 988 or any crisis line. If you are feeling overwhelmed or alone you can also reach out to teen talk. I’m Kit and I volunteer 4-7 on Friday or any other volunteer would be happy to talk the other days of the week. You are not alone and you never have to be but it is also okay to feel alone. Whatever you feel is valid and please have grace with yourself. I’m so sorry that you lost someone you love so much. I’m really proud of you for reaching out and sharing this. from hazel
Hey, I'm so sorry you're going through this, and thank you for reaching out to us. It takes a lot of courage to share something so personal. Losing your best friend and missing her must be incredibly hard. I can tell that this weighs on you a lot, and what you wrote about thinking of harming yourself just shows how deeply you're hurting right now. But it's not something you need to carry alone though. If you ever need support or someone to talk to, always feel free to text or call in. If you're thinking of taking your own life, please call or text 988, the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline, and you'll be connected to someone who can listen and help you. It's obvious you loved your friend so so much. Holding on to her memory is an important part of honoring her, but making sure to take care of yourself is just as important. Surround yourself with people who care and let yourself grieve, cry, and feel whatever you feel. I know this is incredibly hard, and I can't fully understand what you're going through, but know that your pain is real. Comments are closed.
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